From the Inside Out.

So we sang this song at church on Sunday and as soon as the band started strumming on their guitars, I realized what song it was going to be. I must admit, my eyes started tearing up and the memories came streaming into my mind. There are certain songs and certain moments that transport me directly back to a specific moment in time. The first time I heard this song was in Belfast, and I instantly thought about how hard that year was, how I clung to the Lord, and how I would play this song OVER and OVER and OVER again, and while everyone else around me was tiring of the song my love for it was simply growing stronger! I thought about my dear friends Serenus and Lindsay who I haven't seen in AGES! I thought about how challenged I was that year, how much my relationship with the Lord grew, and how much I grew personally from that relationship and countless others.


So the lyrics...I love the lyrics.

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
(love the imagery of losing myself in Christ)

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

And the Truth is...the cry of my heart IS to bring Him praise, but sometimes I get so caught up in myself that I lose sight of that cry. My hope and prayer is that I will continue to cry out to the Lord even when things seem hopeless, when I am disappointed, angry, frustrated and deeply hurt, when all I want to do is turn into myself and wallow in my sorrow, I will turn to Him.