ALONE...I can't imagine it, yet I have had to imagine it this past week. Peter has been gone this past week for work and he will be gone the start of next week as well. So I have experienced what it would be like to raise Jack alone. And I don't like it - not one bit. It's hard work! And I'm tired - let's be honest, I was tired beforehand, just imagine how tired I am now.
And I miss Peter. I miss sharing a bed with someone. I miss the noise of another adult in my home. I miss sharing the baby tasks. I miss the sound of Peter's laugh. I miss my husband.
But I am thankful. Thankful for my husband. Thankful for friends who watch two babies at once, while I'm away at work. Thankful for a job that allows me to work a few days from home. Thankful for my parents who let me stay a night with them. Thankful for my mom who stays a night with me and spends an entire day loving on my son. Thankful for a beautiful home that I love coming home to. Thankful that it's Thursday, and thankful that I don't work tomorrow!!
And as the night comes to a close, I am especially thankful for a sleeping baby boy, diet coke, smelly candles, and some time to write. Oh it feels so good to have my fingers on the keyboard again. How I have missed this - free time. What is that? I hardly recognize it these days. Yet, despite the lack of free time, I find myself thankful for this beautiful opportunity Peter and I have been given to raise Jack, and I am especially thankful I don't have to do it alone. Feeling grateful for our community and for a husband that is involved in our son's care tonight.
xoxo,
Malia
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