My Thoughts on Having a Boy

I've been awaiting the day when I could sit down and write out my thoughts on having another boy.

When people ask what we're having, I've tried so hard to respond by saying...A BOY, rather than ANOTHER BOY! It just sounds different to me and maybe that's just because it feels different to me? 

There are quite a few people in my life pregnant with their third baby, and after having two boys, they've received the news it's a GIRL!! And to be honest, my heart aches a little at the thought that I'll never hear those words, that my girl name has been put to death haha!

But then I hear stories about God's faithfulness to provide them with that baby girl and how God is living into the vision and the dream He has for that family, and my heart soars with gratitude as I think back to my own vision and dream for my own family. 

See it really started even before I had Jack, I just remember thinking I'm going to be a boy mom! I just knew it deep in my heart, and when we found out Jack was a boy, I remember thinking, this is the beginning, and then when we found out Ryan was a boy, I instantly declared BROTHERS!! 

And then when we found out this third baby was a boy, I literally cried so many tears of joy and gratitude as I knew this was God's vision and dream for my family.

Jack had been talking about his baby brother for months, I literally mean months before I was even pregnant with this baby. He so earnestly declared, my baby sister died, and now I'm having a baby brother. I even took videos recalling the conversations we'd have after having them as I didn't want to forget this little boy's dream and declaration of having another brother. 

So it began with this.

And then when we showed him the ultrasound photo, I asked him, do you know what this is? And he declared, it's my baby brother!! He didn't say, it's a baby, but rather it's my baby brother. And in this video, I state, Baby brother we're so excited to meet you, I mean if you're a girl too, we'd be equally as excited, but my first inclination was boy. It truly was. 

So when people would ask me, so what do you think? Boy or girl? I'd say obviously it would be fun to have a girl, but I really think we're having a boy! I would tell them about Jack's words and declarations and it all just felt so prophetic to be honest, and I really wanted him to be right. 

And then we did a blood test where they can tell you gender based upon a chromosomal test of your blood, and they sent me an email with the gender reveal! And I took this video, and the tears of joy are so good and pure and real.

And of course Jack was right all along! God was so gracious to prepare my heart for this moment, truly. It feels like such a gift! I just knew. And thank you Jesus for the way you used Jack to graciously guide me down this path of true acceptance that I am destined to be a boy mom!

And let it be known that I love being a boy mom. I delight in my boys and their energy and their crazy antics! They keep me on my toes and they sure keep me laughing! I truly believe that God gives us just what we need, and little did I know just how much I needed all these boys in my life.